Right now I feel like I am living my very own Icelandic Volcano eruption - I am stuck in limbo and have no-way to get out of here. I am totally stuck.

Whilst all around me are moving on and having babies - I am still in the same place. That flight to parentsville doesnt seem to want to take off.

I am scared - scared that it will never happen. I am scared that my friends are all going to forget me and all be going on play dates and family outings to the zoo whilst I slowly turn into the wierd cat lady who lives in your street (must learn to love cats!!).

It feels like someone announces their pregnancy every day - oh the joys of facebook - and intensifies that feeling of being all alone.

Limbo is a scary place to be - I want to be sharing this time with my friends and instead I am going to be the sad childless one that everybody feels sorry for. It’s just so unfair. It has just been one of those awful awful days where I feel hopeless.

Thank you for all the hugs today it means a lot to know everyone cares.

xxxxx