I am so tired! The new symptom seems to be that i cannot sleep! Due to the headache, frequent hot flushes and all round restlessness. After five days of that I am now beyond tired. I am off to bed as soon as I have written this!

Friday is getting closer and closer and I am getting this overwhelming sense that I am going to go in and be told that nothing has happened and it hasnt worked and have to start all again. I am not normally a pessimist but with this I can’t seem to find my footing.

G and I are tucking into some Hotel Chocolat dark slabs - yummy! That makes me feel better. I had healthy chicken and veg for tea so that was all goodness and high in protein - a girl has to live a little if she can’t drink! Plus I havent eaten all day due to the nausea! I had to miss yoga for fear of throwing up in a downward dog!

I am off to bed to watch some Jane Austen - she’d have a pearl of wisdom for me to get me through this - maybe its time to read Pride and Prejudice again!

Night all

xxx