I couldn’t do it! I am so so so annoyed with myself. I sat on the sofa clutching my flab (G’s words - thanks!!) in one hand and the needle in the other. My hand shaking, sweating and hovering over the area without moving anywhere useful. I feel like an idiot - G had to take over and shoved it in like a pro.

I feel a complete drama queen (I am at the best of times!) and am going to have to get over it as G isnt here this weekend - he is on a stag do in Edinburgh. I can’t rely on him for this - I need to be a big girl and just do it. I am laughing at the amount of fuss I just caused. I think I worked it up in my head all day and made more out of it than was necessary. G tried to tell me it was no worse than putting contact lenses in! - I would’nt know! I feel he might have been lying to me anyway.

What a strange day - i thought I was going to be feeling proud of myself right now and I don’t. I have let myself down. Rubbish.

On a lighter note - I’m watching Grey’s Anatomy - my favourite show - never fails to cheer me up! I heart Mcdreamy! Sorry G I know you are reading :o)

Tanya from Eastenders is on the front of Ok with her miracle twins from IVF - I love a success story - and she got pregnant first time so there is hope.

Also congratulations to James Mcavoy who is going to be a daddy! I heart him too!

Night all from an absolute drippy muppet who can’t stick a tiny little needle in my tummy!!

xxx