January 2010
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That emotional rollercoaster!
Excuse me if I ramble but I am not in a good place tonight. It’s not that I have had a bad weekend - its been lovely. I have seen my friends, been to the cinema (went to see up in the air 6/10) had a shop and relaxed, but its when I am on my own that these feelings overwhelm me. G is on a stag do and won’t be back until the early hours and so I am left to think.
Tonight I don’t...
Hot flushes!
I would just like to share that the hot flushes are now about every half an hour. I am sweating buckets and red-faced - its an attractive look!
The heating is off when anyone knows me knows my house is normally like club tropicana! I think I have also burnt off 500 calories putting on and taking off my cardigan.
Just wanted to share this information with you as its making me crazy!
Off out for...
Yey!
I didn’t think I was going to be able to do it but I did!!! I was so sure I wasn’t going to do it that I went to a friend’s house who is a nurse and she sat me down and we went through it slowly step-by-step. Why they couldnt do this at the hospital I don’t know!! After a little coaxing I managed to get the needle in and it was plain sailing from there - I really dont think...
I'm such a baby!
I couldn’t do it! I am so so so annoyed with myself. I sat on the sofa clutching my flab (G’s words - thanks!!) in one hand and the needle in the other. My hand shaking, sweating and hovering over the area without moving anywhere useful. I feel like an idiot - G had to take over and shoved it in like a pro.
I feel a complete drama queen (I am at the best of times!) and am going to...
The next phase!
So today was the beginning of the next phase in my IVF journey. I had an appointment with the fertility nurse at 8.30am this morning to have a blood test to see if I am ready to start the injecting phase!
She said she would call me at 3pm to let me know the result - I thought I would be waiting for an age for the phone to ring. As the time approached 3pm it seemed to go backwards but she called...
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Ouch!
Today I had my second acupuncture appointment. Apparently acupuncture can help improve your fertility chances and in all honesty - I am willing to try anything if it helps or makes me feel like its helping. An article in 2004 said:
“According to recent research in the USA, acupuncture can significantly improve a woman’s chances of successful fertility treatment. Patients receiving...
Crying.......
….with laughter!
Sorry for the lack of correspondence but I have been on a hen do this weekend and without internet connection (yes I had to surgically remove the laptop from my lap!).
This weekend I have been crying a lot but for the first time in a long time it was crying with laughter. This weekend was the best tonic.
I have been at Centre Parcs in Longleat for fun and frollicks as one...
Sleeping Beauty!
So all I can say is this tiredness is getting silly! My usual jovial nature has left the building and instead I am like a sullen teenager who just wants to stay under the duvet and sleep. Last night I went to bed at 8.30pm and slept until 7am - that is a LOT of sleep and yet all day today I could have slept on the end of a sharp needle! I can prove how unlike myself I am by the fact that I am...
So infuriating!
So I spoke to our fertility nurse who confirmed to me that my dates arent wrong - I am sniffing for a week longer as Oxford cannot fit me in for another week! This is beyond annoying and put me in a very bad mood. I won’t be having my blood test to see if I have achieved down regulation until next Wednesday. So I have at least another week of sniffing nasal sprays!!
I am feeling very tired...
Keeping Busy!
Back to work today after a gorgeous four-day weekend with G and my friends. I am pretty sure the Synarel spray is making me really really tired! I could barely keep my eyes open this afternoon and I have so much work to do at the moment. EEK!
I am trying consciously to keep doing things that will occupy my mind other than babies and getting pregnant. So I enjoyed the welcome escapism of the first...
Call me Becky Bloomwood!
Today I did a good job of impersonating my literary heroine - I am not sure it’s a good sign that she is a shopaholic but that’s me!
I have had the most amazing day in london with my hubby. We drove to West Hounslow - good tip for people outside London - its only £2 all day. We went to Tiffany’s first to get my birthday present. As a bit of background sadly two years ago my nan...
Buzz!
Yey what a lovely day I have had!
I have been kept busy by the lovely G and my lovely friends Meredith and Derek (I am not dillusional just changing names for anonymity). They both adore Grey’s Anatomy like me and I know Meredith is loving her code-name!
I feel like everyone is really spoiling me at the moment. They bought me some lovely lovely pressies - I am going to save the manicure...
Serendipity!
Happy Birthday to me - Happy Birthday to me! And happy birthday to anybody else celebrating a birthday today. I know Kate Moss will be sipping champagne in St Tropez whilst I am eating a chinese in my front room - not that i’m bitter! I’m not really I have had a fabulous day.
G has excelled himself this year - I was woken up to pancakes, croissants, chocolate and fresh fruit. What a...
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Relax.....
Today was the start of my birthday four-day weekend - I know I sound spoilt - but this year I think I deserve it :o)
Today I went to a spa with my friend Gwen. It was just what the doctor ordered. Now until we started looking into spas I didnt even know it existed. But looking on lastminute.com we came across this totally amazing offer for a spa in Swindon that has its spa day reduced from £99...
Truly Scrumptious!
Is the only way to sum up the past few days! You may have missed my blog yesterday (I bet you didnt really ;o) ).
My special birthday suprise yesterday from G was a trip to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang at the Bristol Hippodrome. Its one of my favourite films so I was excited to see it. I had a brief little down moment at the beginning looking at all the other women in there of my age with their...
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Where's Superted?
Because Spotty is here!!
This morning I thought I was a character in one of those cheesy american films like ‘17 again’, where you wish to be a teenager again and you wake up in the morning and you are. Imagine my horror when I walk into the bathroom, look up into the mirror and I see an albeit slightly wrinkly face covered in spots and I mean covered. At the last count there are now...
Campalicious!!
Just been to my friends for a birthday tea (its my birthday on Saturday!!) and we had pizza and banoffee pie - they even made my favourite pizza boring margerita! Love it and love my friends! They bought me the Priscilla queen of the desert soundtrack so i can sit and listen to Mr Donovan - good times!! We had a good gossip and learnt some interesting mathematical equations about my friends :o)
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Day of rest...
Some Sunday’s there is nothing better than relaxing and taking it easy. I woke up very late at 9.40am in a sudden panic as im supposed to take my nasal spray at 9! EEK - but I did so. I read my book (jenny Colgans new book) in bed all morning which was blissful.
G and I took a lovely walk in the snow this afternoon - a breath of fresh air! It was just so nice to take everything at a...
London calling...
What a fun fun day!
I was a little apprehensive this morning because of the snow etc and i am a natural worrier but there was no need - My lovely friend Tinkerbell took control and drove us there perfectly.
We had a little mooch around Covent Garden - I was looking for a dress for my friend’s wedding and I thought i had seen the one that I wanted:
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Quit it!
Now I don’t smoke, I don’t take drugs and I don’t really drink at the moment but the one thing that I cannot seem to sort out is my diet. It’s terrible and I know it’s terrible but I don’t seem to have the willpower to do anything about it. I keep eating biscuits, chocolate, cakes, basically if anything sweet is in front of me it will be gone in 60 seconds! This...
As time goes by....
And so it has been a week since I started my first course of IVF, I am hoping time continues to go this quickly and the end result will be here!
But I am going to try and not let the next five weeks be consumed with thoughts both positive and negative and get back to being me. I think it should be fairly easy some of the time as I have some lovely events coming up. One of my best friend’s...
Behind closed doors...
I was talking with my friend on facebook about how I didnt know what to blog about tonight as I have been housebound all day and I covered the snow issue yesterday! I could talk about the fact that G has had cabin fever since about 4pm and I could quite happily throttle him right now - but that wouldn’t make for intelligent reading. So my friend suggested she hijacked my blog this evening...
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The snow is falling.......
and so is my positivity…….I was sure 2010 was going to be a good year and now all around me people are getting bad news and horrible things are happening, I just need one good thing to happen for me to restore my faith that things will go right this year - not necessarily for me (well that would be good :o) ) but for anyone. So many people are ill, breaking up, sad, out of a job etc...
Why that picture?
I have had many people in the last week ask me why my avatar (profile pic) is of Roald Dahl’s Matilda. When I was younger I was somewhat of a nerd. I know thats hard for you all to believe now that I am dazzling fashion-conscious blonde girlie! But its true I was the biggest of nerds. I liked nothing more than going to the library on a saturday morning and taking out the maximum eight books...
The work blues....
Evening all,
It’s back to work tomorrow and im dreading it. My work is a hotbed of germs and illness at the best of time and am doing my best to stay fit and healthy whilst im having the treatment. I’m taking my vitamins and eating my fruit and veg but am petrified of being ill again and this not working. Since we have had baby issues I seem to have caught every cough, cold, tummy bug...
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I'll be there for you......
When the rain starts to fall……(you know how much I love that show!!) I havent got much to report tonight so thought I would reflect on my friends and how amazing they have been over the past few days and the last year.
I have been absolutely blessed when it comes to my friends, I am lucky and know that I am.
Obviously there is G, my husband and partner through the good times and the...
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Meltdown at midnight
So this is my first posting of 2010 and I have a mixture of emotions to report!
I was actually really looking forward to going to our friend’s new years party to celebrate the new year and 2010 - of which I hope is my year! We ate lovely lamb and I drank non-alcoholic wine whilst the others got merry. Our lovely hostess Meredith is three months pregnant so was also joining in with me on the...